I’m not a Barbie made of plastic molding;
I’m not a porcelain doll fragile if I fall.
I’m a warrior battling day in and day out;
I’m a queen ready to be heard and seen.
I’m not a puppet for you to manipulate;
I’m not a toy for you to play and cast away.
I’m a woman strong and vivacious;
I’m a lioness fierce and ferocious.
I’m not who you want me to be;
I’m not perfect.
I’m just me;
I’m perfectly happy.
I gave you my heart,
And you tore it apart,
Just threw it away–
Didn’t keep it a day.
Made me feel like I’m never enough,
And just told me to get over it and stay tough;
But I’m not as strong as you think,
And my armor can’t survive another chink.
You bring me down to my knees,
And you just go on living however you please;
You don’t care how many tears I cry,
Don’t even bother staying until they dry.
All I wanted was a little respect,
And you crushed my hopes and dreams like an insect;
All I wanted was for you to be there,
And it took me too long to realized you’d never care.
I gave you my heart,
And you tore it apart,
Just threw it away–
Didn’t keep it a day.
Soft gentle strokes
set my body aflame.
Feather-light caresses
ignite my heart.
Sweet soft kisses
burns in my depth.
Capturing gaze
erupts my core.
Your touch
light, soft, sweet,
leaves deep impressions
on my body, mind, and soul.
Air sapped from my lungs
Gasping for breath
In, out, in, out — slow puffs
Deep inhalations,
quick and short exhalations.
Body tense,
Heart palpitating
Sweat beads at my pores
Can’t move, can’t think
The world blurs.
Racing thoughts
Racing thoughts build upon one another
Building upon one another and the burden unbearable
So unbearable a burden that the thoughts
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